10th day...

i am tired le...
i am tired of acting strong infront of you.
i am tired of going around and pretend that i do not miss you.
i am tired of your so called friendship where i dont see you wan to be one.

我真的累了。。。

Tell me what do you wan...
If you really wan act as stranger den jiu say bah, i dont wish to see you mian qiang trying to be friends...
Tell me wad do you wan

today is the 9th day le...

Althought it the 9th day but i am still missing you alot alot alot...

today is th 8th day w/o you

i dunno wad to say... Goodbye seem the most cruel thing... i don't wad word to use to describe how much i am missing you. i can't lie to myself and hide my strong feeling for you. I am willing to exchange anything just to have you back in my life.

erm to the tagger peter.

i didn't say she lie to me or wad. but i once believed there something called eternity love... i once believed that we would walk hand in hand together till the end of our life. watching our grandchild grow up or even see our grandchild marry, finally serpreate by the god of death. but aft this so called 'incident' happen. i won't longer believed a word call forver. In drama series you will get to see people be together forever, no matter what even tornado also cannot seperate them. So to me now that a lie, it will never never happen in reality.

it been one week le...

i am still not used to it. i am missing you awfully much.
i noe i took you for granted in the past...
我真的错了。。。

i am waiting silently for your msges...
i am waiting for you...

Days 6 without you...

i have enough le ah... Finally everything came to light to me... All are nothing but lies...

today is the fifth day le. To you maybe it very fast but to me it like taking forver...

don't zai push me away le can? i really enjoy the times we spend tgt last night... Althought, we went abit overtime bah then it very special.This maybe wad people say de, 人要等到失去才会真稀。 i really hope that time could reverse and i shouldn't have throw temper at you.
What can i do to warm your heart once more again.
what can i do to win your heart again.
what can i do to prove that i had changed.
what can i do to make you trust that i will never hurt you again.
what can i do to show you that i am serious about you.
what can i do to show you everything is still the same if you could give me the chance.
what can i do to show you that i can't live my life without you.
what can i do to gain yr love, trust again.
what can i do to show that for you i am willling to give up everything.
what can i do to and we can go back to be4.



I will be here waiting, even you had started with bunny. i think i must have ill treat you alot bah which cause you to dont think abt the past.

i missing you alot alot alot~~~~
i miss the way we had lie down on the bed and talk about life.
i miss the way you helped me dig my ear.
i miss the little chat on the phone in the night.
i miss the way you help me plucked off my grey hair.
And i still misss alot alot
i am missing you damn much

today is the fourth day i am living wihtout you.

i dont wan what word i can used to describe how much i miss you how much i need you by my esp when i am feeling sick now... you know you mean how much to me not huh. Mayeb love is blind de bah. you will scarfice for her and just for her no matter what. i sweared my love for you is this lifetime next lifetime, mark my words it will nvr nvr change okay dont because you want to start new with him jiu randomly push me to other people. i open my heart and crave yr name inside, just like a tatoo it is nvr going to change. But now no matter what i say still will touch,warm you? Yesterday bernie called and told me his love story. i just wish their ending will be our ending too. if you had really really love me be4, i believed our ending will be just like theirs.

As for my temper,i cant find the reason to play dota anymore. it caused me to lose alot of things, things that i can see and things i cannot see. now my reason of playing dota instd of trying to win the game i will try and keep die,make people scold me noob or craps. maybe i am really going to change. yesterday yes people did scold me noobs but somehow i control. it isn't as hard as it look like. maybe it the determination i have to change bah.

But will we be like jay chou tui hou mv... the last 2 lines.我变了，但也太迟了。

without my beloved denise chan day 3

i finally understand why i bu se de ni le. not becox i cannot fang xia dui ni de gan qing, but because i feel that i have my responsibilty to take care of you for upcoming life. but here you have no feel for me and i cannot do anything already. why not just let go of you to pursue yr happiness. if we are really mean to be together not matter what also cannot seperate us de. but then you were not mean to be with me no matter what i do also cannot change the fact. i think how that fate work bah.

Let us just put down the pressure we have carry for 2 years and enjoy our life. if you think he is suitable for you just go ahead. i will behind your back and support you. and do share with me when anything hapen i will always behind you and lend my listening ear to you

day 2 part 3

what what what can i do just to make the feeling come backkkkk.

day 2 part 2

Last time no matter what little thing i do i say you will beleve and be happy with it. today i cycle to yr house, actually wo zhi xiang kan yi yan jiu li kai but den wo hai shi bu se de.i decided to call you and ask you come down. althought i know even you come down nothing will change but i just cannot control myself for not able to see you able hug you. All changes just came too sudden, but mark my word i will change my temper just for you and only you. you are the reason for my smiles everyday, now with you gone how you wan me to smile and face everyday. I will change de but when i change for better le, will you still be there. Does feeling fade off overnight?
Maybe yes to you
It a defintely no no for me

day 2 without my beloved denise chan
i am really really regretful, the way i didnt show enough concern for you. i think you must be enjoying yr freedom now bah. tell me how did you can let go of a realtionship which had been quite sometime, maybe it not the duration that matter but since both heart had once meet before, i believe it will not be so easy to let go. today i been to few places we had been before.i seen our shadows there. it really break my heart to see this relationship didnt work out. In fact everywhere is yr shadow from every corner of my house till roadside till mrt i can see shadows of our memory. why thing had changed worst.
i now finally understand waiting is the most cruel thing on earth. i am waiting, waiting for the moment you msg me, waiting for the moment to jump up of my seat because i finally see yr msg. time passed so slowly.Every minutes seem like eternity to me.
i will be waiting and always be there for you, i will be there to show my concern when you need someone to talk to, i will be your venting anger machine to cast out all yr unhappiness when you are unhappy. i will also be there to lend you my ears to listen thing that you enjoyed.
lastly if you still willing, i will be there to sing song you enjoyed listening.


my heart bleed...

day 1 part 3

w/o you in my life 3 min seem eternity, and to you now i am nothing but just bff. when will we become like be4

day 1 part 2

Kkays, i understand why you have leave le. i tried my might to save this relationship, maybe you are just too tired of me. mei you guan xi, i will hide in a corner to wait till the day we will be together. i will show you the things i promise you i will change. i promise you i will change my bad temper. i will do things and only things that you like. Even giving up my life is what you wan i also will give it to you. i reliased days w/o you are so so so hard to pass by, time seem to pass very very slowly. i still cannot accept the fact that you have leave, i will keep check my phone waiting for yr msg.

i shall use here as a place to note down what had happen everyday.
how life w/o you.

Day w/o you #1
Idk wad to do everything i do i see it all reminds me about you. i cannot be like you and completely forget my existance. WHY WHY WHY!. the world aren't the one i used to know. Do you still remember what you had promise. I really wan you back.i drink beer to make make myself try not to think so much. but the more i drink the more i am zai xiang ni. how can tell me how are you feeling now. do you really doesnt have feel for me anymore. Why! why everything so sudden. All i can do now is keep wiping off my tears.