today is the fourth day i am living wihtout you.

i dont wan what word i can used to describe how much i miss you how much i need you by my esp when i am feeling sick now... you know you mean how much to me not huh. Mayeb love is blind de bah. you will scarfice for her and just for her no matter what. i sweared my love for you is this lifetime next lifetime, mark my words it will nvr nvr change okay dont because you want to start new with him jiu randomly push me to other people. i open my heart and crave yr name inside, just like a tatoo it is nvr going to change. But now no matter what i say still will touch,warm you? Yesterday bernie called and told me his love story. i just wish their ending will be our ending too. if you had really really love me be4, i believed our ending will be just like theirs.

As for my temper,i cant find the reason to play dota anymore. it caused me to lose alot of things, things that i can see and things i cannot see. now my reason of playing dota instd of trying to win the game i will try and keep die,make people scold me noob or craps. maybe i am really going to change. yesterday yes people did scold me noobs but somehow i control. it isn't as hard as it look like. maybe it the determination i have to change bah.

But will we be like jay chou tui hou mv... the last 2 lines.我变了，但也太迟了。